The past two days have been super rough! Everyone thing around me makes me want to shop...as in the weather, the cute new shoes and bags I see in stores and on the ads on my home page. I've taken my email address off of all the store's list so I wouldn't be tempted..that's not helping! I've realized that I have more control than I thought I did. Yesterday, at work, I needed hair bands because apparently these little guys really do have feet of their own! I got my cool new tanning mitt (a must) and simple chopsticks so I can pin my hair up when I don't have a hair tie near! I had a pile full of goodies and Leah told me I didn't need gloves because we have some in the back for cleaning, so she helped me on that one..I was a little reluctant on giving in, but she said "You're saving money!!!" and then Donnie's voice rang in my head "STOP SPENDING MONEY!" so I put them back and picked up eye makeup remover, did I really need this? NO! I have face wash at home and a bottle of makeup remover I got as a sample from work. I ended up spending under 10 bucks, my district manager would yell at me and tell me I made our average sale go down, well she can go trip over something because she shouldn't be bullying me for trying to heal! I caught myself wanting to go to Target and blow money like no other, just for some black shorts so I could wear them to school!
Friends, this wasn't easy for me to do. I took a breath, waved at Target as Mr. Smith and I drove past and said to myself, you aren't big enough to go in there alone.
I went home had a delicious dinner, got my nails done by my sister and worked out super hard to take my mind off of it. I got home and slept peacefully for once in a few months...is this my minor break through? I hope so!
Well, today I went a little crazy. I went to Target on my lunch break, I do have good reasons! Although I'm still not big enough to be in there by myself, I needed tubberware to organize my room and put Donnie's clothes in safekeeping while he's deployed, I grabbed him a few goodies for his package and myself some razors, I had a cart and I walked past the clothes.....I caught myself making up excuses for myself on why I would need a really cute top, a new bikini, new sandals, new bag, new jewelry. I was walking to the section (yes I was taken over) and I looked at my watch, 5 minutes left of my break!
Maybe it's fate helping me out or maybe picking out my tubberware actually took me 20 minutes, I won't know for a while. But I'm happy that it did, I would have easily spent $150 dollars in things I truly didn't need. I even found myself in my car afterwards saying what I would always say after a Target run "this is the last time!" I didn't need to say that to myself, I purchased what I needed and only that.
I want to make my weekend a victory for myself.
I went the whole weekend without shopping for unnecessary purchases.
I have a long time until I can go into Target and not shop---even the two girls at work today asked if I was good! It's a nice relief when you can say yes!
I can only take this addiction one day at a time and hope that it won't take over when my friends want to go Target. We will see my friends!
May my money never burn a hole in my pocket again, AMEN!
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